I did not record my first album until I was in my early thirties and already had three children! I picked a place called Tacher Studios All I want by kjbandfrom the phone book because the location was half way from where I lived and where my good friend and bass player, Dave Lopresti lived, so we could meet and jam. I met Rick Klimowicz, who worked there as a music teacher and recording engineer. I don’t know why it hadn’t occurred to me before to record an album as I had been writing songs for over ten years by then. So I decided to make an album there with Rick as co-producer and engineer. The plan was to fully record this album in two distinct pieces. Session one consisted of eight of my favorite, most jamming songs, most from my early years of songwriting. I wanted to complete these songs so I could listen to them and enjoy them, then start from scratch again with seven more songs: other older songs, and some newer songs. This album captured my heavy jamming style, and featured stellar lead guitar work by Muhammad Pemberton, and great saxophone by Dave Dionisi. There were five different lead vocalists on the songs. Many of these songs have become staples in every kjband live performance over the years. Work started in 1995, and all recordings were completed in 1998.

Songs on Album

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Living for the moment
Taking it all in
Trying to get a grip on
What’s been happening

Reaching for that something
To make you understand
Think you almost got it
But it slips right through your hand

Slipping away from me
All that I wanted to be
Giving up security
… But I feel so free

Can’t go back to what you had
For now give up that dream
Tomorrow might just hold
More than it may seem

Gotta keep your chin up
And open up your mind
You never know what wonders
In your life you’ll find

Ken Johnston – published by kjband music (BMI) 1998

It’s just the tip of the iceberg
The obstacles in your way
All my thoughts and all my worries
All that I am today

Just trust in fate
That way, I don’t worry much
Just trust in fate
That way, you won’t worry much

Time moves on, takes you
Around another bend
What you choose, which path you go on
Brings you to the same end

Ken Johnston – published by kjband music (BMI) 1998

What is wrong with the country?
What is wrong with the world?
Can we trust those in power?
Can we trust them at all?

Everything is all right says the big man
Things are going just fine

Other people will warn us
If we don’t start acting now
To change the way things are going
The world will tumble right down

I live with a hope for the future
I’ve got all that I need
Since the world is beyond my control
I try not to worry

Ken Johnston – published by kjband music (BMI) 1998

Though I live my life in dreams
I strive for them with strength and schemes
It’s not as silly as it seems

I face my life with confidence
I believe I’m finding a peace of mind
I hope one day it will all make sense
And the world I once knew is left behind

Learning tricks of the trade
Dreams of freedom in the shade
Inabilities start to fade

I keep in mind the practicalities
As to whether or not my dreams come true
I believe true wisdom is hard to see
And the gift of insight is given to few

I haven’t any other choice
From within I hear a voice
Calling me with a strange force

Never can there be perfection
Due to life’s chain of body to spirit
Purpose in life is found through reflection Open your heart and you will hear it

Johnston/Bruckman published by kjband music (BMI) 1998

Time to yourself
Time to play
Time to get things done
Not enough time in a day

Time to go back to work
Got appointments to keep
Days keep dragging on
Can’t get enough sleep

But when I see your smile
Then I know it’s all worthwhile

Sifting through
My cluttered mind
It’s hard to see
What I can find

Lift me up
To higher ground
Don’t look inside
Just look around

And when I see your smile
Then I know it’s all worthwhile

Ken Johnston – published by kjband music (BMI) 1998

Wake up, face the day
The best that you can
Each day, starting over
Do it again

A hundred decisions
You must make
Can’t worry too much
About mistakes

Keep it together. . .

Yesterday so distant
And far
Do you even remember
Where you are?

Or what you’re doing
What you want to say
It’s all that you can manage
To get through the day

Standing in the shadow of another man
Knowing that he knows of all that I am
Wanting me, needing me, hoping to win
You were filled with illusions, but not allowed in.
And…

You’ve been waiting on me
Hoping to find
The love that you need
And the true peace of mind

You’ve been waiting on me
For the words in the end
That you’ll be my lover
And he’ll be a friend.

Mindless confusion and heart filled with fear
Denying the fact your intentions were clear
That I was a part of the plans you had made
I was filled with illusions, but just too afraid.
That…

Now I’ve been wanting and needing you more every day
Your waiting has ended and now I can say
That our first time together, it was then that I knew
That all of this time I’ve been waiting for you.
While…

Johnston/Johnston – published by kjband music (BMI) 1998

Thoughts will come and they’ll go
I wish they’d travel more slow
Trying hard to relax
Can’t face up to the facts

Things’ll happen so quick
The pace is making me sick
It’s so hard to keep track
Don’t have time to look back

Sure I’m happy but yet
Always afraid I’ll forget
All that brings joy my way
Before time sweeps it away

Here I stand now I’m gone
Can’t help but to move on
Wanting to keep what I lost
Living this life what’s the cost?

Ken Johnston – published by kjband music (BMI) 1998

I know all about you
I see your ups and downs
But what is behind
Your smiles and your frowns?

Where is it you go
Deep down in your mind
And what do you think that
You’ll ever find?

Once you figure it out
Come out and let me see
I’ll never be surprised
At what you can be

Ken Johnston – published by kjband music (BMI) 1998

Another day slips away
What have I done
To ease
The restless yearnings?

Have they even stirred
From their rest deep inside
Hidden
Behind the trappings?

The sleep, the work, the playing the game
Day after day it’s always the same

In some there is pleasure
To look forward to
Others
Are dreary or dull

The secret’s to find
A way to transcend
And reach
Beyond the trappings

Should I be content
To just be happy
And go to sleep
With a smile?

Or should I work hard
And push myself
And never
Be satisfied?

Ken Johnston – published by kjband music (BMI) 1998

Thinking clearly
Seeing everything
Got it made

So much time to think,
Read and play
Got it made

Don’t take it for granted
Live every moment, be alive
With every breath, be alive

Finally coming together
Clicking into place
Got it made

I’m where I want to be
In my head
Got it made

My body is a prisoner
Cut off from those I love

Little consolation
That my spirit is alive

Ken Johnston – published by kjband music (BMI) 1998

What is meant by truth?
Are you ever free?
Dreams that fade in light
Do you really see?

You are the hollow people
Living but not living
The caring empty ones
Giving but not giving

I am the outsider
I am the hero
The one person able to see
I am the outsider
I am all alone
The one person who is free

I am on the outside
Looking in on you
An honest observer
I see all the way through

I changed the way I see
A life I will not find
So it doesn’t matter
If you think I’ve lost my mind

Johnston/Bruckman published by kjband music (BMI) 1998

Out of the blue, one day he just called me
A voice from the past, I couldn’t believe
Wanted to see how I was doing
He just wanted to talk to me

The one regret …
The thing I wish …
My one regret …

Seven years, feels like a lifetime
Don’t know where to start
I wanted to call, wanted to write
But didn’t dare, after breaking your heart

Can’t pick up the pieces, there are too many
Can’t go forward, nowhere to go
No point in reliving, what happened is over
I can’t help you now

Ken Johnston – published by kjband music (BMI) 1998

Once you are born into this world
You are thrust into the web of life on earth
A society built to feed the needs of mankind
No choice but to join and live the way they do

No! I want to make my own rules
I don’t care if I look like a fool
All I want is what I think I deserve!

Ken Johnston – published by kjband music (BMI) 1998

Day in and day out
I wake up and deal with it
The mornings look the same
And me, no I haven’t changed

It just rolls on. . .

I play the games
I keep alive my hopes
Open to all that I see
And trusting in all that I can’t

Time keeps marching on
And yes I ride with it
Making the most of my gifts
And giving it all back to you

Ken Johnston – published by kjband music (BMI) 1998