I spent Thanksgiving weekend in 2006 and 2007 in Rochester NY with my sister Barbara Johnston, who is an excellent drummer. She Lies by kjbandhelped me record demos during these visits for two of the three albums I had written but not recorded – Lies and Best Kept Secret. I recorded her playing drums on my portable Zoom digital studio and when I got home, laid down piano, bass, keyboard, and vocal parts. The demos of the Lies album turned out especially well. I liked them so much, I decided that if I could transfer my Zoom files to a real studio, add guitar tracks, and re-record the vocals, I could turn these demos into a ‘real’ album, similar to Bruce Springsteen’s Atlantic City album, where the demos actually did become the album. So this is how ‘Lies’ became the fifth kjband album. I found an engineer willing to do this, and this time, I made sure he was a nice guy! I was so fortunate to meet Gary Georgett and to work with him on this album. He knew a guitarist, Chris Delis, who had subbed on Broadway for the U2 musical – Spiderman: Turn off the Dark. He is extremely talented and did a great job. I am particularly proud of the lyrics to this album which were inspired by a series of classes I had taken that taught of how one could learn to achieve a greater awareness of one’s life, and to learn to wake up from a state of mechanized, learned, sleep-like existence. Many lyrics refer to the lies that people tell themselves. I did all of the vocals on the album and there is no saxophone or strings. The stripped down sound features my piano work more than any other album has. The album was started and finished in 2012. This album was dedicated to my late mother, Nancy Johnston, and the last song on the album, ‘Thank You’ is a tribute to her. Two hidden tracks at the end of the disc are completed ‘demos’ from the unrecorded Best Kept Secret album.

Songs on Album

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Ken Johnston

When you’re a child
Innocent and pure
Deep inside
The place, still secure

So much to deal with
To find what is true
Sift through the clutter
Find what you need to do

Grab a star
Pick it right out of the sky
Grab a star
Keep it in that place inside

We’re all children
Old, or young still
Growing, learning, living
A canvas to fill

So guard it fiercely
That place in your heart
Keep the fires burning
Reach for that star

Reach out
Look in

No happy ever after
While there’s still things to say
Stop and smell the roses
As you find your way

Ken Johnston

What you think you are
Is what you think you are
They’re just thoughts

Who you think you are
Is who you think you are
They’re just thoughts

At any point in time
When you pause, and look to see
The moment … it is gone

Everyone thinks they know
They know, what they think
They’re just thoughts

Your light has dimmed
From years of layers built
Not enough to see

Help me to strip ’em away
The layer of lies
I want to shine

In its place you’ve made
Lights of your own
You see, but it’s not you

You can’t stop time
But you can hold and live
The moment, before it’s gone

At any point in time
When you pause, and look to see
The moment … it is gone

Ken Johnston

Follow your routine
Monkeys do what they see
Convince yourself
That you are free

Don’t question
Believe in all they say
Reflect it in your thoughts
Keep to the pathways

Lies, lies

It’s easy to believe
In what you say
When you’re talking to yourself
We don’t know another way

This tiny glimpse
Is such a tease
This glimmer of light
Too bad my eyes can’t see

Lies, lies

I can’t bring myself
To believe it can be
Naked without the lies
I struggle to see

Am I better off
In the dark like this?
I have my ignorance
And my bliss

And my lies, lies

Ken Johnston

Stealing a moment here and there
To get away for a few
God forbid that I can
Do what I want to do

No time to be selfish
There’s no time to play
Toe the line, get with the program
Do what you should today

Fight it, fight it, fight it
To your last breath

It is so convenient
To have someone to blame
For not facing your fears
It’s easy to play that game

If I become more aware
Of who I am tonight
I’m afraid there will be
Too much shame to enjoy the pride

Ken Johnston

I’ve got some work to do
Got to get it all done
Always there’s some work to do
Might as well make it fun

I need all this time
To shake off the ordinary
Got to see if there’s
Anything else here

So maybe in the morning
I’ll be very tired
But believe me it’s worth it
In vino veritas, veritas…

Work, fun, what’s the difference?
It’s the time going by
True false, what’s the difference
Wide awake, or tired?

The next day, back to the rush
When there’s just no time
Always hope I can carry it over
Or make a valiant try

Ken Johnston

Out, the awkward words
The feeble attempts
Try to describe
Out, the best intents

I might as well dance
While the fiddle plays
Might as well dance
Through the days

Opposite extremes
Try to find a middle
But there’s no such ground
To be found

Sing a song, to pass the time
I play amid the flame
Sing another song
And dance the night away

Ken Johnston

It’s only a little tempting
To not even try
Let the current take me
Don’t put up a fight

But no, I flail my arms
So clumsy and so slow
Sometimes moving forward
But mostly no

Treading water
Working hard just to stay afloat
Going nowhere
But at least, I’m afloat

For every step forward
There’s another back
Lots of plans and ideas
It’s the doing that I lack

All my good intentions
Aren’t worth a dime
Making up excuses
Is how I waste my time

I blame the obstacles
I put in my way
Is that enough
Complaining for today?

Ken Johnston

The lines have been drawn
Here in the sand
Time to find out
Where you stand

You need me
And I need you
So why do we
Do what we do?

You say you’re in the middle
And I’m making it hard for you
But I can see just as clear as day …

You’re on the other side
Of these lines we’ve drawn
How come you’re on the other side …

When I need you here
When I need you here
When I need you here?

It’s the bad weather
Keeping you over there
If you were truly with me
Then you’d be over here

Ken Johnston

I am always nervous
I am always quiet
Fade into the background
And ride it

You tell yourself these things
Until you believe them so
Meanwhile inside you wait
To let them go

You forget that you forget
Enjoy the blissful sleep
So, go splash some water
And wake up those dreams

The path of least resistance
Isn’t always bad
Can’t help but judge
Though it makes me sad

Ken Johnston

Of course I should call
I know I should
I should accept
The bad with the good

Alone by the phone
Every day she waits
Giving up, she retires
To the bed that she made

Let her wait
It won’t be too long
Her fault, but to her
She’s never wrong

I give in and call
Get a lecture and tears
Pay my lip service
Then again disappear

Ken Johnston

I don’t know where to start
Don’t know what to say
How to thank you

You were everything
In the world to me
How do I thank you

I’ll sing a song
A simple song
I’ll sing a song
A simple song

One day here
The next day gone
Then back in my life

A song of love
And hope for the future

You are in me
Right here with me
And in my children

I’ll sing a song…